Missing Uganda

SO I didnt realize I was going thorugh reverse culture shock... but I am
haha
I'm a little bored with life in America
I miss a trip to the store being an adventure
I miss my fellow USP students
I miss the smell of flowers
I miss skirts and sandals
I miss being outside of my comfort zone...
What is my next adventure going to be?

So I over Idealized CCU when I was in Uganda so it's been interesting to come back to.Thing is though, I'm still super sure I'm supposed to be here, I just dont believe it's the most unique christian college in the country.
But the thing is
Even though I hate chapel (don't be alarmed my standards are ridiculously high after Dominion and 1st semester CCU, its probably mostly me, though the majority of the student body feels the same way. )
even though the first couple weeks of this semester were the loneliest of my college career
I am pretty much in love with this semester, even if my love for CCU might be diminishing somewhat.
For the first time in my college career my room, my apartment, is pretty drama free. Its far far far from perfect, but there's this peace about it that's so welcoming.
I feel like I am meeting some pretty awesome people at CCU and slowly emerging from my label as transfer student. (transferring college, hardest thing to do just so you know, not something you do for the heck of it)
And well I feel like I keep on learning to be me, Clumsy, scatterbrained, shy, talkative, Caring, Girly, Oudoorsy, in love with the world me, and well it's a fun journey.
What I'm even more thankful for though, is the people who I am slowly starting to meet along the way.

SO I'm going to try to change my blog from me wondering about the future, to embracing the present.
Like how it's a beautiful day,
Many people believe Colorado is this cold frozen place where people have to trudge through the snow all winter long....
But that's not the case is Denver.
While many snowy days exist in a typical Denver winter, so do the mild days
and these my friends is what makes living in Denver so wonderful.
It snows people spend time inside cuddled up and then two days later the sun is out, and even though it's 45 degrees outside it feels like springtime because the cold is such a dry cold that it isn't so miserable.
This my friends is why I love Colorado.
100% more snow then Georgia
and during the other times, well the weather is possibly more delightful.

okay so I'll admit it, I was a little upset when my parents told me in a lot more words that they didnt think studying abroad in New Zealand was the best idea, I still am sometimes because well I believe it could be the answer to combining my two passions when Uganda was not , especially when they were excited about Uganda but
http://edition.cnn.com/2011/WORLD/asiapcf/02/22/new.zealand.earthquake/index.html?hpt=T2
I could of been there, I was going to wait to study in New Zealand until second semester
and well I dont remember where the schools were but well I remember some of them were near big cities
..... I'm not at all upset anymore

Is this supposed to be my next adventure after CCU
http://web.mac.com/ywampaisley/YWAM_Paisley/DTS.html?
or is it just some crazy dream that keeps on popping into my heart and becoming more and more like me, and well seeming like the answer to the fight in my brain.
Why does it seem so perfect for the dream I have of my life, but in a part of my heart it feels wrong
I don't want to be wrong
I don't want to not plan on going if God is calling me, oh no that would be dreadful
but if God is not calling me, it would be awful if I planned and stopped looking for the wonderful opportunities he has for me here
I thought I had closed the ywam chapter in my book....
but was I right that God really only told me to wait when I started to apply in high school, and was I not suppossed to forget it all together?

SO the adventurous spirit isnt going away, no its getting stronger.
I look at the things I could do in a year and a half and I realize, I would be ridiculous if I did something "normal".
Not when....
I could live in summit county and be an emt.....
or move to Scotland to do the Celtic Way DTS........
or move to a city and really really love people......
my crazy lifestyle isn't going anywhere, anytime soon
but I'm praying about what crazy adventure God wants me to do

God's funny

(from two post from Freshman year)
I have really been wanting to go to Colorado or Scotland lately, is that random?

I have really been interested in learning more about the Bible, missions, my faith, lately, Is that random?

Is it random that these have both been what i have been thinking a lot about lately?

, for one i need a break from school and I need to take a risk. I need to do something that is not typical. My whole life Ive been pretty much from the outside the cookie cutter American girl I grew up in the suburbs played with dolls did ballet, I was a girl scout I was a cheerleader. Then I came to college as an early childhood education major and joined a sorority. I have gone to "summer camp" for every summer since sixth grade. I like apple pie and the 4th of july... okay that might be going a little far. But what I'm saying is so far I done average things and I'm ready to do something different.

If I had only known. This is where my adventurous heart first started to grow. The heart the makes me Kim the 22 year old who is an outdoor leadership minor and has lived in Uganda. God was preparing my heart all they way back then, it's pretty cool.

I lived in the winter wonderland this weekend
I saw pine trees coated with a dusting of snow
I saw mountains that made my heart smile
I encountered true community
and I found myself realizing. That I can't have just Scotland, or just the outdoors. God didn't create me for that.
Some how some way God will teach me how to combine both of these passions, I just have to be patient and wait, and it will be revealed.
I thought I learned how to be be myself 4 years ago, but as college goes on I am realizing that I only learned who I was four years ago, learning how to act like myself is only just beginning to happen.

and well the hardship of last summer, well the lesson might of been worth how horrible it was.
"That you will, dearie, and no mistake," said Mrs Beaver; "if there's anyone who can appear before Aslan without their knees knocking they're either braver than most or else just silly."
"Then he isn't safe?" said Lucy.
"Safe?" said Mr Beaver; "don't you hear what Mrs Beaver tells you? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. But he's good. He's the King, I tell you."
- C. S Lewis The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe,

SO with a year and a half left of my college career, well I'm pretty much certain I'll be single when I graduate( I don't get that close to people that fast)
and I've been thinking a lot lately about what that means.
Now I know the typical christian college girl would be devastated, but I must admit, I'm a little excited.
Not that it wouldn't be wonderful to find someone, and I sure hope I do someday, but well being single and not in school, means well I get to do anything, as long as I have a way to make a living, as long as God allows, I could go crazy and explore the world if I wanted to
I could move to Scotland.
I could become a ski bum
I could do something crazy like move the the west coast, or the east coast.
I could live in an intentional living community.
I could move to New Zealand
and well it's kind of fun to think about those things, not in a well that would be fun way, but a what if I really did this way.
God could through a curve ball, this adventurous spirit could go away, but for now I'm embracing it.