my life changed a whole bunch in Uganda, because my heart changed a whole bunch.
but I was unwilling to accept a lot of it.
I was living with a different heart, but the same exact plans as before.
And to further it, I was afraid, afraid of being homesick once again
But that not what God has called us towards, He has called us to be his hands and his feet, to love his creation, and to worship him our creator.
So what does this mean, well I'm thinking my plans might be different for next year. I'm thinking maybe just maybe I'll try to enter the work world for a year, while truly searching with all my heart, soul, and mind. Maybe I will end up in Scotland, maybe I'll end up in Africa. But I'm going to let God tell me what to do, and fear isn't going to stand in the way.

unless I'm doing a terrible job at listening, I don't think God wants me to live in Uganda again, It's not where he has called me, it's not how he has made me
but Uganda my semester there changed my heart at it's very core and now almost a year later, I'm still adjusting to life in the US, still trying to live as this new me.
It's not hard anymore
I don't have moments of crying, of feeling utterly alone,
but my study abroad experience changed me, and there's a part of me that wants to go back
I've realized how fragile my heart was when I was in Uganda, because it has started to heal.
That summer before, was the worst summer of my life, and my heart needed a lot of healing
I believe Uganda was part of it, but it hurt my experience. Part of me wants to go back. But I know it's not where God wants me.
But maybe one day, some day he will allow me a visit

So God's really working on my heart a
and well I might have a plan for next year
I might be going back to college....
yes you read that right, your eyes were not playing tricks on you
what i mean is I might go to missions college
It's called Redcliffe and it's in the Gloucester region of England yes you read that right... England
And the more I think about the more my heart is saying yes yes that's the one, that's your plan
So I might be writing papers for another year, I might in away be studying abroad again,
It just answers so many prayer
like with a Student visa I am allowed to work part time in the UK
isn't that wonderful
And it's community of people who want to go out and change the world, not just avoid college for a year (sorry YWAM, but you know there is a tinge of truth to that), or have some fantastic life changing missions experience, and come back to the US to never leave again, no it's a group of people in it for the long haul
How amazing is that!!