A glimpse into my heart

I think part of the reason I feel so called to overseas, is it is cultures and God's creation where I see God.  It's where God reveals himself to me. Just think about it God created culture. There is a reason he made people to not be alike. There is a reason Nigerians eat Fufu and Ugandans eat Matoke. And it's beautiful it's absolutely beautiful.We all say that God made each of us to be individuals to be unique. Well God also made community's to be unique too and this uniqueness is what we call culture.  Yet, we live in cultural Ghettos, hanging out with people who think, dress, and act like us. St. Augustine address this he says “The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.” Reading only a page of a book, well that's just plumb awful. And think about this more. How much more awful would it be to read a book and only like the pages that are like your page. Well it would be like saying I only like 1 John, I don't like the rest of the bible. But all of scripture proclaims the glory of God, and so does his creation. It is beautiful because God created it in his image.  In heaven it will be so beautiful when all the cultures are joined together praising God, just like it will be that all God's people are joined together. Why isn't though that we refuse to participate in this glimpse of heaven here. Why do we segregate? Why do we hang out with people just like us?
Because we are fallen, and part of our fallen nature is wanting safety, easiness. Nothing to be hard. Crossing Cultures is hard, partly because it requires us to be selfless and admit that everything we think and do is not right, That there isn't a right or wrong way to do some things. But friend disappointment, sadness, struggle those aren't sins. God is sinless yet we break his heart when we sin. So Why do we make life so easy, and ignore the fullness that God has given us right here on the earth?

Faith

I often fear that I don't have things right. That I might be missing God or following the wrong things. This comes from my own personal church history background, which I won't go into. But I want to make sure that I am following God with all my heart and all of my mind.* Whatever it might look like. Starting this summer God has lead me on a path of realizing how sinful I am, but how great he is. He is so very great friends, and he is so powerful, ALL powerful.
But it has lead me to this place. This place of knowing I can't have all the answers it's not possible. We are too fallen to have all the answers,  but friends don't lose hope! For GOD IS MORE POWERFUL AND LOVING AND FAITHFUL THAN WE CAN IMAGINE. I don't need all the answers, I just need to wake up everyday picking up my cross and carrying it daily, laying myself and my plans at his feet. One thing i know for sure, God has called all of us to love EVERYONE. And not economical love which is conditional, but AGAPE unconditional love. Love with out expecting anything in return, agendaless love. Love like he first showed us.

*friends after the fall I had it is a very big thing I just said that, God is faithful in our weakness!