so right now I'm leaning towards not studying abroad, and to be honest it hurts even to say that Studying abroad is a big reason why I decided I did not want to go to school for nursing
But ever since I went skiing a little more than a week ago, I can't stop thinking about how much i sincerly want to be a camp counselor this summer.
Not a ton of people know this about me but being a camp counselor is the only thing I wanted to be throughout my life and not just in parts of it. Growing up going to camp somehow I always managed to get some of the best counselors in the camp. Camp, outdoor church services at Gahgee's, Boot camp in high school all impacted my faith the most. And a desire has grown within me to share everything I learned through the outdoors with others.
but still part of me just wants to go to the uk.......
P.S If anybody reading this knows of any christian camps in the uk I could be a counselor at please contact me kimberly.joy.mac@gmail.com
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
a little insight about my last post
So for the past year or so i have felt like my two of my biggest loves are in a conflict my love for other cultures, missions and my love for the outdoors.
And yes I know it's possible they could be all rolled into one but for for some reason because that seems so far away I have never been able to quite grasp it.
Part of my wants to live in Colorado forever working with people outside ministering to them hence the reason why I'm minoring in outdoor leadership
Part of me wants to live in Scotland ministering to people hence the reason my major is global studies
I know someday God will show me how these two things fit together but in the mid time I remain confused.
And yes I know it's possible they could be all rolled into one but for for some reason because that seems so far away I have never been able to quite grasp it.
Part of my wants to live in Colorado forever working with people outside ministering to them hence the reason why I'm minoring in outdoor leadership
Part of me wants to live in Scotland ministering to people hence the reason my major is global studies
I know someday God will show me how these two things fit together but in the mid time I remain confused.
poll of honest opinion for all who might happen to read
Should I
1 not study abroad next fall knowing I could in the summer or do missions stuff immediately after graduation. and be a camp counselor somewhere this summer
2 study abroad
1 not study abroad next fall knowing I could in the summer or do missions stuff immediately after graduation. and be a camp counselor somewhere this summer
2 study abroad
Friday, January 22, 2010
i think I have a problem......
I think i just joined my 3rd, yes my 3rd ministry at CCU.
I'm officially in love with volunteering
or maybe its just that I'm in love with people, but I think we all already knew that
Tonight I spent hanging out with the homeless or might as well be homeless( they live in an apartment type shelter not sure of the whole deal)
and for one thing it dramatically changed my view of homeless people.
Everyone I'm pretty sure could read and some of the people were probably ten times smarter than me
most people seemed like they were not drunk or high
There was one guy who if I had passed him on the street I would of been sure he was your average joe. But no he was homeless. He just moved here from san diego and something happened with his apartment so now for the first time in his life he's homeless
For the most part the people I meet were either just old hippies who has a vision of the way they wished the world would be and it didn't quite fit out culture's perception of normal or for some it almost seemed the streets is where they found community. They only person who seemed self conscious about there situation at all was the guy from san diego.
In a way I learned something from the homeless last night, that community is of uptmost importance.
I'm officially in love with volunteering
or maybe its just that I'm in love with people, but I think we all already knew that
Tonight I spent hanging out with the homeless or might as well be homeless( they live in an apartment type shelter not sure of the whole deal)
and for one thing it dramatically changed my view of homeless people.
Everyone I'm pretty sure could read and some of the people were probably ten times smarter than me
most people seemed like they were not drunk or high
There was one guy who if I had passed him on the street I would of been sure he was your average joe. But no he was homeless. He just moved here from san diego and something happened with his apartment so now for the first time in his life he's homeless
For the most part the people I meet were either just old hippies who has a vision of the way they wished the world would be and it didn't quite fit out culture's perception of normal or for some it almost seemed the streets is where they found community. They only person who seemed self conscious about there situation at all was the guy from san diego.
In a way I learned something from the homeless last night, that community is of uptmost importance.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
have I ever mentioned I love CS lewis
( Elaine inspired me to start blogging more frequently again)
Prudence means practical common sense, taking the trouble to think out what you are doing and what is likely to come of it. Nowadays most people hardly think of Prudence as one of the 'virtues'. In fact, because Christ said we could only get into His world by being like children, many Christians have the idea that, provided you are 'good,' it does not matter being a fool. But that is a misunderstanding. In the first place, most children show plenty of 'prudence' about doing the things they are really interested in, and think them out quite sensibly. In the second place, as St Paul points out, Christ never meant that we were to remain children in intelligence: on the contrary. He told us to be not only 'as harmless as doves.' but also 'as wise as serpents'. He wants a child's heart, but a grown-up's head. He wants us to be simple, single-minded, affectionate, and teachable, as good children are; but He also wants every bit of intelligence we have to be alert at its job, and in first-class fighting trim. The fact that you are giving money to a charity does not mean that you need not try to find out whether that charity is a fraud or not. The fact that what you are thinking about is God Himself (for example, when you are praying) does not mean that you can he content with the same babyish ideas which you had when you were a five-year-old. It is, of course, quite true that God will not love you any the less, or have less use for you, if you happen to have been born with a very second-rate brain. He has room for people with very little sense, but He wants every one to use what sense they have. The proper motto is not 'Be good, sweet maid, and let who can be clever,' but 'Be good, sweet maid, and don't forget that this involves being as clever as you can.' God is no fonder of intellectual slackers than of any other slackers. If you are thinking of becoming a Christian, I warn you you are embarking on something which is going to take the whole of you, brains and all. But, fortunately, it works the other way round. Anyone who is honestly trying to be a Christian will soon find his intelligence being sharpened: one of the reasons why it needs no special education to be a Christian is that Christianity is an education itself. That is why, an uneducated believer like Bunyan was able to write a book that has astonished the whole world.
I think in a way a lot of my preferences for churches and christian schools I choose come from the ideas shared in this quote. I'm not sure why. Maybe part of it is because I have grown up being a christian and after a while you need solid food to chew on. But even more I think it comes from God creating us in his image. He gave us gifts and talents not so we could ignore them or use them where it was easy , but so we could use them for his Glory. For we are the only person God has created to be ourselves. We are not called to be mediocre, go with the tide type people, instead we are created to make difference.
Prudence means practical common sense, taking the trouble to think out what you are doing and what is likely to come of it. Nowadays most people hardly think of Prudence as one of the 'virtues'. In fact, because Christ said we could only get into His world by being like children, many Christians have the idea that, provided you are 'good,' it does not matter being a fool. But that is a misunderstanding. In the first place, most children show plenty of 'prudence' about doing the things they are really interested in, and think them out quite sensibly. In the second place, as St Paul points out, Christ never meant that we were to remain children in intelligence: on the contrary. He told us to be not only 'as harmless as doves.' but also 'as wise as serpents'. He wants a child's heart, but a grown-up's head. He wants us to be simple, single-minded, affectionate, and teachable, as good children are; but He also wants every bit of intelligence we have to be alert at its job, and in first-class fighting trim. The fact that you are giving money to a charity does not mean that you need not try to find out whether that charity is a fraud or not. The fact that what you are thinking about is God Himself (for example, when you are praying) does not mean that you can he content with the same babyish ideas which you had when you were a five-year-old. It is, of course, quite true that God will not love you any the less, or have less use for you, if you happen to have been born with a very second-rate brain. He has room for people with very little sense, but He wants every one to use what sense they have. The proper motto is not 'Be good, sweet maid, and let who can be clever,' but 'Be good, sweet maid, and don't forget that this involves being as clever as you can.' God is no fonder of intellectual slackers than of any other slackers. If you are thinking of becoming a Christian, I warn you you are embarking on something which is going to take the whole of you, brains and all. But, fortunately, it works the other way round. Anyone who is honestly trying to be a Christian will soon find his intelligence being sharpened: one of the reasons why it needs no special education to be a Christian is that Christianity is an education itself. That is why, an uneducated believer like Bunyan was able to write a book that has astonished the whole world.
I think in a way a lot of my preferences for churches and christian schools I choose come from the ideas shared in this quote. I'm not sure why. Maybe part of it is because I have grown up being a christian and after a while you need solid food to chew on. But even more I think it comes from God creating us in his image. He gave us gifts and talents not so we could ignore them or use them where it was easy , but so we could use them for his Glory. For we are the only person God has created to be ourselves. We are not called to be mediocre, go with the tide type people, instead we are created to make difference.
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