Top Friends

you know when myspace was big and everyone had their "top friends", when being the friendless high schooler I was this just made me furious and left out.
I didn't have anyone to put on my top friends, because I frankly didn't have any friends. No true friendships anyways, no friendships out side of my family.
It's why my one prayer for college was God let me have friends, I spent countless nights praying for friends, true friends. The kind of friendships that change you at your very soul.
And now I sit here 5 years later with not just one true friendship, but many. God's plans really are amazing, they really are better than we could dream.

God's has been working in my life in pretty crazy ways lately. Honestly I don't remember a time in my life where I have felt so close to God, and so in sync  with God's plan for my life. He is moving and he is moving big time.  Every step I feel his presence. I don't know why God moves in my life so much before graduation, but he does this happened in high school too. But this time is different he's teaching me the
“If you live gladly to make others glad in God, your life will be hard, your risks will be high, and your joy will be full.”
― John Piper
He's getting me ready for the missions field, silly scatterbrained me. Oh he is so very Good, his plans though sometimes hard  are better than we could ever imagine.

“Adventure is a path. Real adventure – self-determined, self-motivated, often risky – forces you to have firsthand encounters with the world. The world the way it is, not the way you imagine it. Your body will collide with the earth and you will bear witness. In this way you will be compelled to grapple with the limitless kindness and bottomless cruelty of humankind – and perhaps realize that you yourself are capable of both. This will change you. Nothing will ever again be black-and-white.”
― Mark Jenkins

 “To move, to breath, to fly, to float,
To gain all while you give,
To roam the roads of lands remote,
To travel is to live.”
― Hans Christian Andersen
SO i just watched many episodes of Amazing Race. See I wrote a paper. needed to relax before bed, and then I couldn't stop relaxing.  Gods put this huge love in my heart for the world. A desire that has strengthened  every year I've been at CCU. And now I've realized that God has not only been leading my heart, but he has also been preparing me. Preparing me to move to Europe and minister there. It's pretty crazy and every second I feel lead there, my response is always God you called me? me? But we serve a crazy amazing God. A God who has plans for us that our better than are craziest dreams.

Love it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be
There is a design, an alignment, a cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be
(not from a christian band but the lead singer of the band is a christian, I can't help but think that he was thinking of God when he wrote this line)