okay last night I though I would post some post that I never posted when i was in Uganda, but the put them as yesterdays date, figuring out soon!!!

I hate anti malarials

So I found out every thing that has bothered me here
joint pain
nausea
stomach ache
things that happen when you have a stomach ache
is because of anti-malarials

The closer it gets to leaving the more special Uganda becomes

It's funny, When I first got here I honestly would of jumped up and down if you told me I got to go home in 4 1/2 weeks and now just the thought brings a lump in my throat. In a way I skipped the honeymoon phase of culture shock, and went almost directly to the rejection phase, so my whole time here has been focus on acceptance, not regaining a silly emotional high that I had at the beginning of the trip. And for me this is a good thing a very good thing. I am a person who gets overly excited way to easily, and well once I have experienced euphoria i seems like something is wrong if it is no longer there.
But this journey of acceptance, well has made me realize for one thing if God ever called me to Uganda long term I could not only do it but also enjoy it.

SO today I went and got away and spent time at a pool at the hotel in town. It was so good to get away and be in the sun and the water.
Me and my heart are fully settled in Uganda, right now I'm thinking I probably wont live here again, but I know I could and that's a good feeling. It's nice to be able to call a country that's not your home country a home away from home, it's nice to feel fully comfortable.
The weird thing though is my time is almost up I have only 5 weeks left which means I only have 1/3 of my time left. And there going to be full.
We had an assignment this week to reflect over are time here, and set goals for our time left.

God's been bringing something up in my heart lately.
and I really don't know where to go with it but He had been asking me, to ask myself... Do you feel called  to not do missions in the developing world because I have called you somewhere else, or is your heart in the developing world and you feel like you can't go there because Europe needs missionaries too and your willing, or do you feel pressured to go to the developing world because of culture pressure when I have made it clear your supposed to go to europe
I know this is part of the process of God confirming my call, but it's a question that I keep on playing over and over again in my head. Any Perspective?

I just signed up for a reunion of my study abroad program, I'm pretty excited.
But it makes me remember, and well it makes me realize how much I have truly changed since August 24th, 2010.
While I'm still me, everything seems different,  my outlook on life is different, my outlook on my faith is different, my outlook on the world is different, and I couldn't be more thankful.  Thankful, because as far away as God sometimes felt when I was there, that semester abroad taught me what it means to follow him. I went there blindly, and in many ways I left blindly, not understanding the real purpose. But as time has passed, this purpose has become clearer. I'm thankful that I see things from an international point of view now, and that it taught me that life is not always how i see it. I'm glad for the way it made me focus on integrity and principles, instead  rules and appearances. It almost feels like God has taken my heart and has given it a new color. The structure is the same, but it looks and feels completely different.

"Never be afraid to trust your unknown future
to a Known God"
-Corrie Ten Boom