The Future

Okay so as anyone who has been at UrbanPromise or has hung out with me in the past 6 months knows, I've been struggling with the future BIG time.  There is so much that I want to do and well what seems like little guidance on what I should do.
Which is scary for a girl that feels like God has very clearly lead her to different places the past 5 year. USP, CCU, UP God showed up and clearly pushed me to go the places he sent me.
 But I'm doing better now
Thanks to a wonderful intern from my study abroad program I started reading this book called Just Do something. and well it made me look at the whole thing differently. I've started to look at how God has made me, what are the desires he has placed in my heart. In a nutshell what makes sense for me to do next, here is a list of things I have come up with:

1. International, I LOVED studying in college and God has given me this huge heart for the world, I feel like I am not being faithful if I am not using it. The best way I can describe it is it's like having a gift and love of singing, and never worshiping God with song. 
2. Relationships, Wherever I am I must be able to grow in relationship and have a true Christlike community.
3. Location, Preferably Denver, near Birmingham, or international, but I'll go ANYWHERE for the right opportunity
4. I want to join people together, I want to seek reconciliation 
5. I want to learn, I want to live a lifestyle of learning, always finding out new things, always seeking to understand the world around me further

So there it is,  now here is finding out what this looks like ... let the adventure begin

Last year I read this book called Good News about Injustice and this book impacted my faith in ways I am still learning, but one of its biggest impacts was how it called my heart to action.
In Scripture Micah has a vision and in this vision it is asked God what is pleasing to you, God how are you most glorified and God says he is most glorifed when we
Do Justice, Love Kindness, And Walk humly with him
In the old testament just the definition of rightousness is a call for persuing justice,
this is becoming the cry of my heart. To possily impact the world in helping it see that we might be more alike then it thinks. To make enemies friends To bring reconciliation, to bring peace. To share the crazy love of Christ

Confessions of a nonvoter

 I didn't vote
Yes I did not vote in the presidental election. Yes a Dominion and CCU alumni, who has been taught the importance of voting since birth didn't vote.
And well as much as I make excuses that I didn't pick a candidate on time, I did it on purpose.
For one the lesser of two evils is still evil.

What is a person to do when she has so many strong beliefs that land on every side of the political spectrum suppossed to do?
I was taught through out school that we should vote for the person who we we believe in who we think should be running our country, and looking out for the greater good. What do we do when we do not see this person?
So it is said we choose the best we can, making sure above all else we choose. But I can't do that I voted in the last election for what I believed to be the lesser of two evils and very much regretted my decision a year later (not to say my person won).  I believe when you vote your are holding part of the responsibility of putting someone in office. And well how could I say put this person in office, when I didn't even want them to be in office in the first place.
So I didn't vote
 I used the freedom that God has given me, and I didn't vote, because I know NO MATTER who wins, and what happens in this country my hope and trust will be placed in God alone.
Pray for the Nation
Pray that Gods will will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Pray for the World and all the rulers and people in it.

Okay here is a real honest blog
When I returned from Uganda, well even in the amsterdam airport, my heart was so happy to be in the west, among our affluence that I quickly decided in my heart that I was never called to live in Uganda again. This decision became even clearer, when I saw my family and loved being with them, and reflected over the past few months there. I was so happy to be home, I literally hardly even talked about Uganda for three months. but well there is something about Uganda that get's inside of you, and while I was there I changed as a person.
But still the idea of living in Uganda wasn't for me. There were lot's of reasons, but lets just say I was pretty convinced that the idea of living in Uganda wasn't for me.
That is until this summer. For the first time since I've been home I spent time with Ugandans, one of them Moses was getting married (to a girl from the Uganda Studies Programme!!) and his Mom came to the camps and sang, and gave her story of sorts. I had no idea any of this would be happening. I had recently gotten back from somewhere, was standing in the kitchen and once of the interns Salima came in and said Kim you will want to see this and lead me into the big room. A few seconds later the Ugandans in the room all started to sing Ugandan songs, and a big large lump appeared in my throat. It was as if for a moment part of my soul returned home. And since that day I have not been able to get Uganda out of my head. Also my biggest reason for not going to Uganda long term was I felt like I couldn't connect with the people, but now after this summer I have 5 close Ugandan friends.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do with all of this, Will you pray with me?
I just know one thing, during time like this all i know is I want to be where GOD wants me to be

If I was going to really describe my summer. Well it would take forever. But well I knew from the moment that I got here that this place is like a family, that this place is special.
So let's start with describing what a say in the life of Kim looks like right now. Well To start I live in a house with 14 people in all, 10 girls 4 guys. It can get crazy. But well we are all big fans of quality time, so there are many special moments. Nights are often filled with meaningful conversation that goes late into the night.
The Staff here also really encourages each other in our relationship with God. And well that has been pretty incredible. I feel challenged in my faith for the first time in a long time.
I have also really enjoyed working with the high schools. I never thought I would be doing high school ministry. But I love it so much!!!!
Okay that was really short. I just can't write anymore without writing a book.
Things to pray for
energy ( we get tired, and we literally never stop)
continued harmony in my house
A meaningful last couple weeks ( for the summer, I'm coming back for the school year)
helping them develop the outdoor program in the near future

Hopefully I will find time to write on here in the future, but no promises.

Both in Mumbai

Am I the only person who does not see something wrong with this?