a joyous journey

SO I have had an interesting night...
which propably cam from watching the movie regarding henry and the Jon and kate plus 8 ( ugh why did I watch it I promised myself I wouldn't watch it anymore) in the same night
God has really really really been showing me how material items do not matter tonight. What does matter is time spent falling in love with him, growing closer and loving our family and friends and living a life to Glorify God. And it brings me to a story.
I have always had a interest in missions and have grown up in a family where I don't remember a time where I wasn't praying for missionaries. As I write this right now my wonderful sister and her husband are in Guatemala doing missions work. Growing up we have always had family friends who were missionaires and I have known my whole life that missions would always be a huge part in my life. Through out middle school I signed up for missions classes at summer camp and waited for the day when I finally got to go on a missions trip.
And that day came when I was a freshman in high school, but it was not what I hoped for. Even though one girl in the children's home latched on to me, I felt like I wasn't making a difference. I was actually convinced after that one trip that I wasn't called into full time missions especially in impoverished areas. I saw the poverty and heard stories about how one girl in particular was treated by her foster parents. But I did not feel a connection, I didn't have any passion for it.
SO for the rest of high school until my junior year i did not even sign up for a mission trip even though I had ample opportunity. And to be honest it's because I didn't want to. That is until junior year when I heard God tell me so very clearly, that I needed to on a mission trip to Scotland that summer. That trip changed my life. I am a completely different person today because of that trip.
But to be honest for a long time after that trip I refused to think about going on a third world mission trip. I knew of a place I had a passion for I knew where I could make a differnce and I didn't see the point of changing it.
But God and God alone because there is no way that selfish me could of done this. But thanks to God he has taken my heart amd taken the flame that was relite for missions when I went to scotland and has molded it into a heart for helping people in general. Helping kids ministering to them. Seeing the world and experincing other cultures. And I'm praying about where I'm supposed to go with it, besides of course colorado.